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Gottmik wouldve been crying too, she says, except I was on way too much testosterone.

That moment with RuPaul marked a final one.
But to hear her tell it, what she learned during the competition was more valuable.
And she became a fan favorite thanks to her fabulous confessionals and sweet moments with fellow queens.
Are you nervous, are you excited, whats your vibe right now?Im not nervous at all.
I think that is something I learned onDrag Race: There is no point being scared.
Im so proud of everything I did.
[Laughs] The secret is Valium.
No, Im just kidding.
I think its maybe because I went innotwith that attitude.
I went in so making sure I looked a certain way and said the right things.
I was overthinking everything.
Then the next week was Snatch Game, where I did the exact same thing, and it worked.
So youre doing this journey with yourself, and then times ten because were in a pandemic.
N O Im staying idc
You did makeup for a lot ofDrag Racequeens before you were onDrag Race.
[Laughs] The advice that I got would not have applied to my personal journey.
But I was in the show and I forgot the cameras were even rolling this whole time.
But Im sure if Kandy Muse did that, it wouldnt have been the best.
Its funny that you say you forgot the cameras were even there.
From the very beginning, I was watching your confessionals and just falling in love.
But I tapped into my natural timing and my natural humor that I have.
One of your funniest and my favorite moments wasimpersonating Paris Hilton in Snatch Game.
You talked about having worked with Paris before and doing her makeup.
Were you worried about offending her?I was a little bit worried.
I dont know her on like, the level of life.
So she wouldnt be mad, but I did want to be super-respectful at the same time.
I remember getting ready, and I was like,Okay, Snatch Games coming up.
And turns out she was, she lived!
What was that like for you?Oh my gosh, okay.
First of all, Snatch Game Day, I was full, like, a methodacteur.
I was in Paris Hilton mode since the makeup was on.
[Laughs] Im like a psycho when Im thinking of looks.
I love it though.
So as of this call we dont know who wins yet.
I came in and did what I needed to do and Im so proud of it.
I feel like I won with or without a crown.
But its so true.