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I just got to hear the song.
(Can I call them motherfuckers?
Thompson bluntly asks.)
And I think thats just so apparent in the way he makes things happen in my life.
Taylor pushed her date back a week and it lands on the day of my best friends wedding.
This is so serendipitous.
Somebody wanted us to be together during the release of the song.
Thats where I go in my darkest of times.
Hes always watching out for me.
Theres a song onFearlesscalled The Best Day.
Every day he was running into my bedroom, so excited for what we were going to do.
Even if it was nothing.
I always say, every day with him was like Christmas.
Whether we were just at the grocery store or playing in dirt in the backyard.
We spent a lot of time in New York when he was sick.
Go around to his favorite ice cream place, to his favorite pizza place, to Central Park.
It just felt like it was him and I against the world while we were there.
So, our time in New York always brings back really special memories for me.
I was completely devastated for her.
I didnt sleep for months.
I feel like Taylor has been the one keeping him safe, right?
Hes been with her.
Im so angry for her.
I feel like I have my baby back in a way.
Its the only way I get to have him.
And Taylor did that for me because thats who she is.
I know you keep a lot of your correspondence with Taylor private.
Its just so sacred to me and its so pure.
Youre right, I do keep it very private because I would never want to exploit it.
Everything thats happened between Taylor and I has happened because Taylor wanted it to happen.
I never wanted people to feel like I was taking advantage of the situation.
Its like she knows when Im hurting.
Shes really anchored him into this world.
So these kids do not have to continue to die from it.
You have been so open about your experience with grief onyour blog.
One of the biggest things Ive learned through this process is there are no steps to grief.
I know you have a book coming out.
But that wouldve been the easy way out, and that just didnt feel right to me.
I knew I wanted this book to be world-changing, life-changing, my best work.
I would give anything to have him back here with me.
But having him captured in this way, other than having him here, its the next best thing.
What more could a mom ask for?
What was the experience of putting the video together like?Fucking horrifically hard.
But it was also beautiful.
So, thats how she gets to know him is through those videos and through what Taylors done.
So to have her by my side during that time was really special.
This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity.
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