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This interview briefly touches on the topic of suicide.
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This wasnt just an ode to hearsing any maladjusted fuckboy that looked to distract her from her path.
The Body Bagvideois really fuckin dope.Thank you.
Im glad you liked.
Cus it wasnt really that.
I was interested in the fact that people died.
I thought that shit was crazy.
You mean, were good one day and then the next day we just fucking die?
I had an uncle, whose name was Matt, who passed away when I was seven or eight.
It was my first funeral experience and I just couldnt believe that this was a thing that people do.
I was always grossly interested in it.
My mom put me in that school, cus she thought I would make a good defense attorney.
She thought I just had a way with my words and I just knew how to explain shit.
But I ended up following the forensic-pathology path.
Or I wanted to be a mortuary scientist.
So the symbolism for Body Bag came straight from that?The theme for it was a butcher shop.
And I really wanted to wear a meat dress, like Lady Gaga wore a couple years ago.
But the production company was telling me,Oh, I dont really think thats a good idea.
This is gonna be all day, the meats gonna start to stink,etc.
But when people were saying that it gave them Jeffrey Dahmer vibes?
I was just like, Im not inspired by that white man at all.
So I never watched it.
I just was like, yeah, this is not that.
I was going to school, sleeping on couches.
I didnt have a car and I didnt have a job.
And through this post breakup experience, it was fucking tearing my insides apart just going to school everyday.
It was the icing on the cake for me.
So really its not even that I quit going, I failed.
I failed because I just missed too many days and we was literally going into COVID.
I was tryna get the professors to understand but they werent very understanding at all.
Then again they were white so I didnt expect them to really understand or care to empathize with me.
They just didnt get it.
I was in a terrible-ass space.
Thats so much, my God.Yeah, that was 2020?
From March to July I was pretty much moping around.
I was depressed, I just didnt have any energy and I really stayed in bed a lot.
I ended up going to my grandmothers house and I slept in one of her rooms every day.
I was just in the worst state Ive ever seen myself in.
That was kind of a sliver of hope for me.
In October, I started working at a 911 call center.
I had worked there in high school.
So I started making more money and I was able to continue going to the studio.
I was able to scrape some money together to get myself a car and shoot music videos.
And then in 2021, I dropped the song, and the rest was history.
That is outta this world.
Just a wild-ass story.Some shit out straight out of a movie.
I really didnt fucking talk to anybody.
I had my inner circle and I never deviated.
We were friends from ninth grade all the way to 12th grade.
So we all just cliqued up and just gravitated towards each other inevitably.
You could probably count on one or two hands how many Black people that were in each class.
Finally come time for the audition, I was like, okay, I killed this shit.
I boohoo-cried when I didnt get it.
Did you find the love for performing in those years?No, I didnt.
I wish I did.
I still dont love performing to this day.
Its a very nerve-wracking experience.
I just get extremely nervous.
My hands start shaking and stuff like that.
I have to calm myself down that people are there and theyre staring at you and theyre judging you.
I dont know if I grew to love performances.
I think I built up a coping mechanism for the anxiety that was associated with performance.
We talked to Flo Milli last monthand she told me that she started out singing too.
Is it wild that both of yall are touring together?
So now that Im making a name as a rapper, people are just thrown off.
Its like, hey yo, now she rapping?
Shes always making sure that Im taken care of and we share similar fan bases.
I feel like we both are super stressed out.
We dont really do too much invading each others spaces.
Im really soaking it in.
Touring is a fucking beast.
The biggest burden is just mentally wanting to be home.
But thats the hardest part.
The actual tour stuff isnt really bad.
Even just the bus, not the worst thing in the world.
Not the most comfortable, but its not the worst thing in the world for me personally.
Cus Ill just be sprawled out on the back seat just laying down all the time.
I aint gonna lie.
Its not that bad.
Theres an influx of more abrasive music specifically coming from women.
I mean shit, were tired.
But Im 21 and Im an adult and Im stepping into my womanhood.
So I just make that very clear in my music.
I probably would shoot somebody and then help them fucking put pressure on the wound.
This interview has been edited and condensed.
