The Flight Attendant
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Relapse is a very tricky thing to portray onscreen.
So, it felt tragically inevitable when she finally took that drink in this weeks episode.
But this time, we know that Cassie wants more for herself and that she is capable of change.
Cassie is literally the bad decision train.
She always has been, and her year of recovery has not changed that one bit.
Of course Cassie wants a drink.
Shes never stopped wanting a drink.
And thats why shes been engaging in all of these other behaviors instead.
Cassie has to bolt to her Imperial Airlines yearly training, but Marco catches her on her way out.
Understandably, Marco gets kind of aggro about Cassie dodging him.
How long has it been since he asked her to move in with him?
Its hard to tell because Cassie is bouncing all over the place like a frantic pinball.
Obviously, this isnt Marcos fault.
Its more of a commentary on Cassies complete inability to commit to lasting, stable relationships.
Take away the whole international espionage and doppelganger plotlines, and Cassie is still a total emotional train wreck.
Cassie is honest with Marco, however, as she blurts out that she cheated on him.
He breaks up with her, leaving with the ice-cold line that his daughter wouldve really loved Cassie.
Somehow, Cassie makes it to her Imperial Atlantic training anyway.
Carols at the training, and shes mad as hell.
Shane is also at the training, and hes trying to calm Cassie down.
Much like every single person in her life, he tells her to stop digging into this mess.
And, to her credit, Cassie does listen to him.
Instead, she heads to Graces apartment.
Grace provides a comforting shoulder to cry on, but she also has booze.
To her credit, Cassie initially turns down the offer.
But then Davey texts about some mystery trip and a letter to their dad.
So, she drinks.
And absolutely none of it seems like fun.
At first, Cassie is awash in the familiar numbing buzz of her old friend vodka.
After leaving Graces house, she heads to the liquor store where she sees Jenny.
She successfully discourages Jenny from relapsing but buys two bottles of her own booze.
Then, she calls Shane.
Shane is so very sick of her shit.
Cassies mind palace is a chaotic mess throughout this entire episode.
Its been increasingly chaotic this entire season, but things really take a turn here.
It turns out that Cassie hasnt been sober for an entire year like shes been claiming.
Thats why she moved to Los Angeles.
But she couldnt outrun herself.
Theres a saying in recovery: Wherever you go, there you are.
Who the fuck would wanna be you?
She collapses on the sand, staring into the airspace above, and cries violent tears.
The thing that used to make her feel light and free doesnt make her feel light and free anymore.
She can no longer fool herself into thinking that theres an escape hatch.
Thankfully, Cassie calls Brenda, and the two of them have a heart-to-heart on the sand.
Others, not so much.
Brenda tells Cassie that recovery doesnt work without rigorous honesty, which is absolutely true.
But she also tells Cassie multiple times that shes starting over.
Cassie isnt completely starting over because now she gets to learn from her mistakes.
And wanting to try is important.
As Cassie winds down with Brenda, she feels a hand on her shoulder in her mind palace.
It looks like its Responsible Cassie.
Perhaps shes come to make amends.
Cherry has a delightfully cheery personality with a streak of naughty, and shes an effervescent presence.
Its likeCassie and the red coatall over again.
Will these women ever learn?
Its simultaneously eerie and hopeful.
Cassie seems to have an unlimited number of gorgeous coats.
I covet her closet and her clothing budget.
There are some shifty things going on at the CIA.
This is a very overtly shady thing to do!
Then, Dot asks her assistant to pull a record of all of the communications between Cassie and Benjamin.
